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Monday, September 28, 2009

RECAP!

First and foremost, a recap.

A: I learned that I'm not racist. No, I confirmed I'm not racist just because I let an N-bomb fly out of my mouth. Shit happens. After I wrote the last entry, I hung out with my brother and my other friends and they eradicated my doubts about being a racist as well as being insane. Ever since that day, I've gotten a lot better at controlling my anger, even though I doubt anybody will believe that. I don't care if they don't believe it though. I mean, would you really believe in somebody who claims to be happy with no money?

B: School started up again. I like my classes, except my JUS 221 (Criminal Investigation) class, who is a good teacher, but he fails to excite me. CIS 106 (Beginner's Programming) is a LOT of fun (I'm having nerdgasms and orgasms in that class and I'm loving it!=) JUS 261 is one of those slow classes that will rev up to be a great class! Speaking of which, I got to study for my exam tomorrow and here I am jerking off (metaphorically, of course)! Then again, I'm kinda boned without my medication. Me and Ly had (well, tried to have) a conversation about ADHD. Hell, I don't know if it does exist or if I really need the medication, but it kinda serves to be both a medical and a psychological crutch. In other words, she's probably right in that I don't need the medication; but whenever I take the pills I do feel more calm and relaxed than I do without them. In a sense, it's like a serial killer on death row seeking penance from God. Whether or not God exists, when a killer repents, he usually feels better.
C: I was trying to date this girl and for a while it seemed like there was something big still could happen. However, she decided through her conversations with me or by hanging out with me to try to reconcile with her ex-boyfriend. That's right, despite my attempts to try to show her that I'm serious about trying to be with her, she decides to attempt to reconcile with her ex. How the hell did I fuck that one up?

Here's what I can't figure out: I'm willing to let it slide and let her reconcile with her ex. Whenever you want something you fight for it and I'm willing to do that usually, but with this one, I don't seem to care that much. It's because she defeated me with logic as into why she wanted to go back to him. She told me that her ex and her were always fighting only because of their schedules. I realize that if I were going to pursue a relationship with her that I'd only end up fighting with her too because of my dedication to school and my pursuit of landing a real full-time job (which isn't going so hot, btw). I despise being a man of logic and reasoning when it comes to love and relationships, but I'm willing to understand and make that sacrifice. Sure, it hurts like a steel-toed foot in the crotch, but I'm willing to let her get back together with him if it does make her happy. It seems that with each defeat I take in the game of love I get stronger and better as a person, though I become more jaded and confirmed in my original beliefs that nobody wants me. In all fairness though, I should've seen that coming when she started listing my positive traits and that I'd make a great guy for somebody (but not her).

D: I've been sick for the past week. Whenever I get like that, I tend to be extra agitated and I shoot off people's heads whenever that's the case. Usually, it's before I get sick that I get agitated, but this time around I was angry even while I was sick. That's a first. Ly called me (which is rarer and rarer for her, by the by) and with my health as it was (waking up and sleeping every three hours, coughing, irritability), I had to tell her that I was sick and ended the convo before my sickness-induced agitation would've scared or hurt her in a way I don't intend to.

That's pretty much it for now since I really gotta study for my exam tomorrow. I had come up with a revelation about myself that I will divulge later.

Thought of the Entry: What has being a nice guy really gotten me?


Sunday, June 21, 2009

Throwing the Dice

For the first time in my life, I tried to ask a girl to be my girlfriend. I actually took a step out of the comfort zone and told a girl how I felt about her. Granted, she had a boyfriend who can make my face explode in one punch, but it was something I felt for her that I felt about anybody before.

Neexless to say, I got the same two tired lines: I think of you as a brother, and you deserve a good girl to find one day.

I'm sick of those two god-damn lines, but that' s not the point of this blog.

I lost, but I still feel awesome! It's like, yeah, it didn't work out for me, but I actually took a step I never thought I would ever take in my life.

Try to understand this from my viewpoint. I've never felt anyway about anybody before because I was so afraid and disgusted of hearing those two tired lines from any woman I really liked over and over again. There's only one woman I can look at like a sister in return if she calls me her brother, and with her, it's all cool. However, I don't want to hear that from anybody else. Secondly, I hate the good girl line crap. It's like part of the sentence: "Yeah, you deserve a great chick, just not me." I fucking hate that crap! Especially since every girl (except one) who said that to me, I had wanted to be with as well. It's like I want to yell righ to their faces: "I've found a good woman, and it's you! Why can't it be you!?!" Those two lines continued to embitter me, and as such I gave up trying because I was always going to hear those lines.

I always thought that I would be numb when I really hear that phrase. Now that I've actually heard it used against me by somebody I actually told that I liked,. tt turns out actually that the phrases I didn't want to hear were actually good treatment.

See, those lines used to stop me cold in my tracks because, it was because of those two lines that I never gave myself the courage to say anything to any girl I liked and I ended up missing out. Sure, there were probably other complications, or maybe that they just weren't into me, but I still could've given it a try. Sure I'm rejected and it does kinda hurt a bit. But, the fact that I was willing to sell it all out to somebody, even if the feelings weren't there, was the most excitement out of life I've felt. It's like, yeah, I lost, but for somebody to make me take a shot like that, she must've made me feel REAL damn good about myself. It's invigorating to know that I have some real worth to somebody after all.

Ly told me that I have to fix some points:

f only u learn how to be a gentlemen
Ly (1:12:38 AM): dress up
Ly (1:12:40 AM): lose weight
Ly (1:12:45 AM): and calm down
Ly (1:12:50 AM): and learn how to talk
Ly (1:12:56 AM): then u will be fine

Well, the girl I talked to said that I only have a cursing problem and that was it. Otehr than that, me and Nicole were friend zone as well, so that was out of it. So frankly, Ly's wrong. I don't do any of those things she suggests
around her. I know how to act in public and I can manage myself  as a gentleman, but not around her because I don't want to be a gentleman around her, I want to be myself, as nice and kind, but yet as foul and wrong as I please. Sure, I could dress better if I had money and the knowledge of what looks good on me, because I don't know what I would look good in for myself. I've lost weight ( A LOT since high school), so how much more do I need to lose? I do need to better control my emotions though. And,I need to learn to tone down the aggressiveness though.

Thought of the Entry: I've got to keep trying more than ever now.


Monday, April 20, 2009

What would the child you once were think of the adult you have become?

I envisioned a chat when I saw this question. Very rarely do I emo-wangst/drama, but when you're 15, 17,18 years old, your bingo balls are still in the draw tank. I feel so upset about myself in the past for being weak, but as life is a changing process, I'm always growing and changing myself to become the best I have to be. In a conversation format miming Persona 4:  Me vs. Myself; a slaying of the past.

Me then: Dude, you don't have actual friends; they'll just use you until they're done with you and they'll throw you out. Just like before, once you served your purpose, you're back to the butt-monkey!

Me now: My two best friends, hell, would ANY of my friends do that? No they won't. It's not like it was back then, when I was getting suckered into helping people out only to get myself frustrated in the end. I grew up to be a better judge of character and realized what it meant to find the right people. You jackass, you used the same method it takes to hate people that it takes to love them; sit down and talk to them! You didn't think that you could have any friends, that everybody seemed to look at you the same! You were just so stupid in trusting the wrong people and shitting on the ones who did care about you! It was when I decided to be alone that I found the right people. Not everybody can benefit from that methodology, but it worked for me! I used to think it was quantity of friends that made a person, but it's quality. Now, I've got two real friends, and countless other friends, who although I don't speak to much, still have my back as I've got theirs! Society is cruel and tough, but cutting my ties to society only made it harder to live in it.

Me then: And if they betray you too? Odds are they know you well enough to know not to trust in you.

Me now: Fine. Although I keep poking my nose where it doesn't belong, I still have to learn to respect their privacy!  I can't fully ask them to trust in me if I can't fully trust them in the first place. However, don't think that knowing everything about them is full trust. No, that's actually just being really invasive! by respecting privacy, that's also trusting them! I wasn't being a friend by being invasive, I was just being a nosey twit! Some people don't have things they don't like to talk about, and I KNOW that I've got a few things I can't talk about to anybody. Don't act like that's a betrayal of trust.

Me then: You still don't have a girlfriend! Women are just so nasty! Despite no matter what you do to prove your worth, you're still nothing to them because you're ugly! It seems that no matter what you do, you're just a stupid ugly klutz! You just keep doing school and work while neglecting your love-life!

Me now: Yeah? And? Ethically speaking, by the same reasons that I think some people fall in love with the wrong ones, it's also wrong to assume that they can fall in love with you because you feel more deserving! Haven't you ever looked at yourself back then buddy? No talents, no real emotions, bad odor, no fashion sense, not applying yourself to anything nor showing any real care or concern for your own well-being or anybody else's, you didn't deserve anybody! Why the hell did you think they were going to turn you down for what you looked like? You didn't look like anything they desired? Besides, I realize now that I'm glad I made the right decision to be alone; I don't need to rely on anybody for that, just my friends who pretty much alleviate what aches me. You chose to be alone and now I've got to take those consequences; but I don't care about that!! I never said I wanted to be romantically alone all of my life, but that doesn't mean that I have to be hooking up with people now! You didn't want to find anybody because you were so insecure in yourself that you never gave anybody a chance to love you! Hell, you didn't feel anything back then either! Even with Eriselda, you were more into her for the chance of sex! She was a fine piece of ass, I'll give you that, but love solely based on sex is really immature! I still have the ability to change my lifestyle and my physique if I choose to, and unlike back then, I won't make excuses for not doing anything. The only real excuse now is that I forgot to do them, and that's really it.

Me then: Well, what about your own ADHD? You surely realize the medications are wearing off? You know you can't do anything without your pills, everybody knows it! Without those lucky pills, you're a hyperactive bozo!

Me now: That's not true. It only seemed like it was a first because nobody really talked to me about ADHD. You never went back and found out what it really was and how to counter-act it. Everything that happened as a result of ADHD was brought about by our own actions. Now that I'm older, I have a stronger mental discipline and can control my own disorder! Sometimes, I don't feel like I need the pills anymore, but they certainly don't hurt. Honestly, my current Vyvnase just seems like a psychological crutch! I was refusing to accept in my own weaknesses and blamed my weaknesses on a miracle pill. Now, I'm older and I've found new ways to manage ADHD! AND, I'm kicking twice as much ass in my life.

Me then: New ways to succeed? What about your original dream? Chemistry, how did that work out?

Me now: Door closes, two windows open. I thought it was Chemistry, just like I did then, but now I'm finding new things I'm really enjoying. You can't make a plan out at 18 and believe everything will follow suit! Times change and challenges get tougher! Maybe I did run away from Chemistry, but I realized now that I was only interested in Chemistry, not really wanting to do the work. It's no good to make yourself do something that you're not happy in! I'm now doing stuff that I really love and I won't let anything stop me this time!

Me then: You can't forget your past. You squashed that innocent girl in 8th grade, you know you got into a fight with another one in fourth grade, you got jumped numerously by groups of kids; do you think you can let that go, especially knowing how you hold grudges?

Me now: Yeah. That happened, no doubt about it. As much as I've been attacked for shit I don't deserve, I've eaten my share of peanut butter too. Granted, I'll always think about what I've done as well as what has been done to me, but I don't dwell on them. Instead, I take the lessons about myself that I've learned and apply them to the future. Like Richard Pryor once said: "You've got to have lived some life, you've got to have paid some dues."

Me then: You know you'll die alone...

Me now: And? We're born alone, we die alone. But the trip from cradle to grave doesn't have to be a solitary one. I think that's the best way to find ourselves in history, by through other stories about ourselves and the legacies we leave behind. "His"story in a sense. I don't care if I do die alone, but I've got a good feeling that even the Undertaker (not the wrestler) would weep when I die!

Me then: You're just being delusional! The real world isn't as nice as you think it is!

Me now: And the real world isn't as bad as you think it is, it's only as bad as you make it. Deal with the challenges that come your way, instead of running away like a little bitch.

Me then: Heh, you're really something these days.

Me now: I'm not you anymore. I'm my own person and I'm going to keep changing.

Thought of the Entry: Ever have an argument with yourself and come out with a much better understanding of who you are?


Tuesday, April 07, 2009

22 skidoo!

Today, I'm supposed to celebrate another year today where I came to life and watched as the planet made it orbited another year with me in it. I'm not that excited about my birthday. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to live. However, there just feels like an age where you're not supposed to care about it that much (doesn't mean I don't want people to say nothing). I didn't take off of work today, and as a matter of fact, I'm sitting here doing some CIS homework until I have to leave for work. Maybe I'm just not making that big a deal out of my birthday, but I should. Mom said we'll celebrate it on Sunday.

I've hit 22 years old. I think back on last year:

Props
-Made even more new friends on Xanga as well as in real life.
-Kept in great touch with the older friends.
-Reached a further deepening of my friendship with my two best friends.
-Got my life in serious order.
-Found a major that I truly love, study, and pursue. Even in my off hours!
-Got a exercise regimen. Granted, I don't follow it like a saint, but it's better than what I've been used to doing.
-Gained much more confidence in several areas.
-Still single! Wahoo!
-Proven I'm more mature than what people think I am.
-Learned better time management skills.
-Still have a job.
-Have an even stronger plan for the future.
-Got over my sleeping disorder
-Learning new things that I want to do, such as motorcycle driving.
-Bought new clothes.
-Improving my own physique and my health.
-Way more optimistic and open minded about people.

Slops
-Having an innate ability to set off gaydars.
-Not making the "Kiss My Ass" money.
-Having a friendship on shaky ground due to my romantic life, which is none of his business.
-Still learning how to drive.
-Should dedicate myself more to my regimen.
-Slacking a bit in the quality of work.
-Taking longer than I should have to get through school.
-Perhaps, I'm not having as much fun as I should, but I gotta do work first, then play.
-Being an asshole when I don't need to/want to be.
-Still not able to properly speak an opinion without retards jumping on me before reading/hearing my point.
-Haven't even thought of moving out of home yet. It's gonna happen; just not yet.
-Still a bit lacking in my room maintenance (it 's a shitsty here).

So yeah, there are many things I've improved myself in last year, but there's still ever so much more to go. Can't be a god, but damn it all if I can't rock on hard!! \m/

Thought of the Entry: I'm going to do something dramatic this birthday; I am going to shave my goatee and mustache off!


Monday, April 06, 2009

What is special about your best friend that makes him/her worthy of the title BFF?

They're just there and themselves. Two people who I can easily crack jokes with, without the fear of having to be politically correct as well as they can give me laughs in return. In addition, they trust and believe in me, as well as having proven and earned their trust and loyalty for me just as much as I have had to in order to earn their trust and loyalty. for them. For that, I can gladly say I have two BFFs, and that I can manage in my life as long as I have those two to back me up. That's all it really takes for me to rock hard! \m/

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ABOUT YOU
Your full name:Matthew Michael Metelli
Age:18
Height:6'3
Natural hair colour:Dirty Blond
Eye colour:Green, Hazel
Number of siblings:1(real sister), 3(sworn brother, sworn sister, real sister)
Glasses/contacts?:Glasses, though rarely used
Piercings:None
Tattoos:None
Braces?:Once...fell out though
FAVOURITE
Colour:Blue, a real specific one at that
Band:OTEP
Song:Blood Pigs
Stuffed animal:Plucky Duck...what?
Video game:Persona
TV show:House
Movie:Die Hard With a Vengenance
Book:The Da Vinci Code
Food:Fettuchini Alfredo
Game on a cell phone:None
CD cover:Sevas Tra
Flower:Black Rose
Scent:Morning Air
Animal:Bull
Comic book:King of Bandit Jing (Manga)
Cereal:Fruity Pebbles
Website:Xanga.com
Cartoon:Full Metal Alchemist
DO YOU
Play an instrument?:No
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:Yeah probably
Like to sing?:No
Have a job?:No
Have a cell phone?:No
Like to play sports?:Football only
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:No
Have a crush on someone?:Once...I learned from that bite
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:No
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:No
Have any special talents/skills?:I rule at Video Games
Excercise daily?:Not really
Like school?:Yeah, all my friends are there
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:No
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:yeah
Speak any other languages?:French...a little though
Go a day without food?:No
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:Yeah
Read music, not just tabs?:Sometimes
Roll your tongue?:No
Eat a whole pizza?:Yes
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:Yes
Cried to get out of trouble?:No
Gotten lost in your city?:No
Seen a shooting star?:Once
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:No
Had a serious surgery?:No
Stolen something important to someone else?:Not technically important
Solved a rubiks cube?:No
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:No
Cried over a girl?:Once...again I got over that bite
Cried over a boy?:Outside of Family, no
Kissed a random stranger?:No
Hugged a random stranger?:No
Been in a fist fight?:Yes
Been arrested?:No
Done drugs?:No
Had alcohol?:No
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:Once
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:No
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:No
Swore at your parents?:Once
Been to warped tour?:No
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:Yes
Been in love?:Crushes don't count
Been close to love?:Once, I blew that though
Been to a casino?:No
Ran over an animal and killed it?:No
Broken a bone?:No
Gotten stitches?:No
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:No
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:No
Made homemade muffins?:No
Bitten someone?:Once...I was hungry
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:No
More than 5 times?:No
Been to niagra falls?:No
Burped in someones face?:Yes
Gotten the chicken pox?:Can't remember, but I did
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:This morning
Went to the bathroom:Few hours ago
Saw a movie in theaters:Can't remember, last movie I saw was M.Night Shyamalan's Village
Read a book:Quite some time ago. Last book read was Misery
Had a snow day:Winter
Had a party:Don't throw them
Had a slumber party:Don't do them
Made fun of someone:While ago in school
Tripped in front of someone:Few months ago, infront of Eriselda
Went to the grocery store:If 7-11 counts...two days ago
Got sick:Sometime in November
Cursed:Three seconds ago
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:Fruit
Black/white:Black
Lights on/lights off:Lights off
TV/movie:Movie
Car/truck:Car
Body spray/lotion:Body Spray
Cash/check:Cash
Pillows/blankets:Pillows
Headache/stomach ache:Headache
Paint/charcoal:Paint
Chinese food/mexican food:Mexican
Summer/winter:Winter
Snow/rain:Rain
Fog/misty:Fog
Rock/rap:Rock
Meat/vegetarian:Meat
Boy/girl:I am a boy, so I say girl...I hope I read this right
Chocolate/vanilla:Chocolate
Sprinkles/icing:Icing
Cake/pie:Cake
French toast/french fries:French Fries
Strawberries/blueberries:Strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool:Swimming Pool
Hugs/kisses:Hugs
Cookies/muffins:Cookies
p33n/bewbz:Bewbies!!!
Wallet/pocket:Wallet
Window/door:Door
Emo/goth:...Can't class myself either or, so I'll say Goth, just for familiarity
Pink/purple:Purple
Cat/dog:Cat
Long sleeve/short sleeve:Short
Pants/shorts:Pants
Winter break/spring break:Winter Break
Spring/autumn:Spring
Clouds/clear sky:Clouds, though I like Clear sky in the morning
Moon/mars:Moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:A ton of them
What are their names?:Juan, Andrew( all four of them), Ly, Min, Minh, Angel, Jenn, Chantha, Justin, Tyler, Vesna, Clary, Samantha, Stephanie, Catherine, Joni, Edd, Holly, Russell, Jeanie, Eriseldaa
Do you have a best friend?:Juan, Ly, Andrew (Grande)
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:Sure
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:Guy
Have you ever lost a friend?:Of course
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:Not really
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:I laugh like Lu Bu infront of Juan.
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:Quite a few times.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:Bought Juan Soul Caliber 2
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:Gave me Hades
Do you miss any of your old friends?:Jason and Zack
What friend have you known the longest?:Andrew
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:YES!!!
If so, what is it?:I got in a fight with her in fourth grade. I never thought she'd forgive me
How often do you spend time with your friends?:Whenever I can get the chance
Do any of your friends drive?:Ly, Tien, and whoever else gets
Has a friend of yours ever died?:No
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:Something banned in Texas
What do you think your friends think of you?:Funny, Loud, Intelligent, and Caring
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:Crush is not love
If you have, with who?:Can't say
Are you single?:Yep
Are you in a relationship?:Nope
If so, for how long?:0 hours, 0 minutes, and uh...0 seconds
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:No, take it from me, that's a load of bullshit
What is your idea of the best date?:Don't know
What was your first kiss like?:Never going to know that
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:never had it yet
Do you think love is a load of shit?:I'm mixed. Can't say it's vital, but it'd be nice to be in
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:Becoming great friends
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:No
Have you ever been dumped?:No
Have you ever dumped someone?:No
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:Looking at each other, lol
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers:Feet
Hat:Hat
Hard:On
Free:Time
Space:Dark
Taste:Shitty
Good charlotte:Blows
Red:Blood
Deep:Shit
Heart:Less
Cord:Long
Cheese:yummy
Rain:gorgeous
Work:stressful
Pedal:to the metal
Head:banger
Bed:relaxation
Fluff:Time
Hardcore:OTEP
Race:White
Knife:Wrists
Jump:Can't
I....
am:Weird
want:That special woman
need:That special woman, and better looks
crave:A new PS2
love:My friends Juan and Ly
hate:Shit talkers, Wiggers, Khadija, and that damned Bling it on Commercial
did:my work
feel:like a fool
miss:talking to Eriselda
am annoyed by:Shit talkers, Wiggers, Khadija, and that damned Bling it on Commercial
would rather:Be dragged to the middle of nowhere, beaten with a piece of heavy equipment and left to die bleeding in the moonlight
am tired of:The world
will always:Hate the world, no matter how many nice people I meet
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:Death Metal, Heavy Metal, and anime music
What time is it now?:8:55
What day is it?:Monday
Whens the last time you called someone?:Justin
How much money do you have right now?:No cash
Are you hungry?:No
Whatcha doin?:Watching Little Nicky
Do you like parades?:No
Do you like the moon?:Love it
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:Go on with life
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:No
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:Super strength and mastery over Ice magic
Have you ever had a picnic?:no
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:No
What about sock em boppers?:No
Are you wearing any socks right now?:Yeah
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:Yep
pretty?:NOT by a long shot
sarcastic?:Yep
lazy?:At times
hyper?:At times
friendly?:Yep
evil?:Evil is in the eye of the beholder
smart?:Yep
strong?:Yep
talented?:Nope
dorky?:Define
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high:Dennis
skip:Marche
dance:Chantha
lonely:Jason
pen:Pass
flower:Ly
window:Justin
psycho:Kenny
brain freeze:Angel
orange:Minh (Male)
sassy:Khadija
jelly:Safia
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:Against
love:For
drunk drivers:Against
airplanes:Against
war:Against
canada:For
united states:For
rock music:For
gay marriage:No comment
school:For
surveys:For
parents:For
cars:For
killing:Against
britney spears:Against
coffee:Against
pants:For
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:No
Play strip poker?:Once the shirt comes off...the game ends
Run away?:No
Curse at a teacher?:Yes, I did
Not take a shower for a week?:No
Ask someone out?:No
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:No
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:No
Go scuba diving?:Yes
Write a book?:Be nice to
Become a rockstar?:No
Have casual sex?:It'll happen.
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:Don't care
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:never did
What kind of computer do you have?:Laptop
What grade are you in?:12th
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:No
Or just make out?:No
How many posters do you have in your room?:None
How many cds do you have?:50-65
What time is it now?:9:00 P.M

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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Matthew
Birthday:4/7/87
Birthplace:Some Hospital
Current Location:Dad's room
Eye Color:Greenish, Hazel
Hair Color:Dirty Blond
Height:6'3
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right
Your Heritage:Italian
The Shoes You Wore Today:Boots
Your Weakness:Too slow
Your Fears:Love, Heights, and Women
Your Perfect Pizza:Pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Go to ANY fucking college at this point
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:Fuck you
Thoughts First Waking Up:Fuck this
Your Best Physical Feature:Don't have one
Your Bedtime:Whenever I fall asleep
Your Most Missed Memory:None
Pepsi or Coke:Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger King
Single or Group Dates:No dates
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Tea's Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:Neither
Do you Smoke:Nope
Do you Swear:FUCK YEAH!
Do you Sing:Nope
Do you Shower Daily:Yeah
Have you Been in Love:Nope
Do you want to go to College:Yeah
Do you want to get Married:Nope
Do you belive in yourself:Nope
Do you get Motion Sickness:Nope
Do you think you are Attractive:Not by a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG shot
Are you a Health Freak:Nope
Do you get along with your Parents:Yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms:Love them
Do you play an Instrument:Nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:Nope
In the past month have you Smoked:Nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:Nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:Nope
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:Nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:Nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:Nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:Yeah
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:Nope
Ever been Drunk:Nope
Ever been called a Tease:Nope
Ever been Beaten up:Nope
Ever Shoplifted:Nope
How do you want to Die:Sleeping, Like my Grandpa, not like the others in the van screaming
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:Toxicologist
What country would you most like to Visit:Japan
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Don't care
Favourite Hair Color:Don't Care
Short or Long Hair:Long
Height:Not taller than mine
Weight:anywhere below 200
Best Clothing Style:Whatever
Number of Drugs I have taken:None
Number of CDs I own:Too many
Number of Piercings:One, but I lost it
Number of Tattoos:None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:13,200

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Take the Spirit Quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.
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You are Form 5, Dragon: The Weaver. "And The Dragon seperated the virtuous from
the sinful. He tore his eyes from his sockets
and used them to peer into the souls of those
on trial to make a judgement. He knew that
with endless knowledge came endless
responsibility."
Some examples of the Dragon Form are Athena
(Greek), St. Peter (Christian), and Surya
(Indian). The Dragon is associated with the concept of
intelligence, the number 5, and the element of
wood. His sign is the crescent moon. As a member of Form 5, you are an intelligent and
wise individual. You weigh options by looking
at how logical they are and you know that while
there may not always be a right or wrong
choice, there is always a logical one. People
may say you are too indecisive, but it's only
because you want to do what's right. Dragons
are the best friends to have because they're
willing to learn.

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Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability ||| 10%
Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Assertiveness ||||||||| 26%
Activity Level ||||||||||||||| 42%
Excitement-Seeking |||||| 14%
Enthusiasm |||||||||||| 34%
Extroversion |||||||||||| 31%
Trust ||| 10%
Morality |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Altruism ||||||||| 26%
Cooperation ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Modesty |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Sympathy |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Friendliness ||||||||||||||| 48%
Confidence ||||||||||||||| 50%
Neatness ||||||||| 26%
Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Achievement |||||||||||||||||| 54%
Self-Discipline ||||||||||||||| 46%
Cautiousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 51%
Anxiety |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Volatility |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Depression ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Self-Consciousness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Impulsiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Vulnerability ||||||||| 30%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||| 32%
Imagination |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Artistic Interests ||| 10%
Introspection |||||| 18%
Adventurousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Liberalism |||||||||||||||||| 58%
Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||| 52%
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DisorderRating
Paranoid:High
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Moderate
Antisocial:Moderate
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:High
Dependent:Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

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The Moon Card
You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light. Image from: Stevee Postman.
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